I recently took a break from Facebook over the weekend.
So much happening around us, it’s hard being constantly bombarded with bad news and attitudes. I feel like my life and the lives around me are caught up in an intense tornado of chaos and drama.
Feeling like I need to be strong leaves me lonely sometimes.
I hate when I feel this way. I seem like such a whiner. Maybe that’s why I haven’t felt much like writing lately?
Pressing on despite how it feels.
It’s all exhausting.
Feels like I need work done under the hood again.
Like I have thick molasses oil in my veins…
pulling me down into the melancholy resistance that keeps me…
Again and again and again.
Lord, rescue me from the despair of myself…again.
Wake up and repeat.
Depression is merciless.
It won’t let up.
Give me a break!
I don’t want it to run off on others.
I know people with worse problems.
I’m not allowed to cry.
But today I fully feel all of my own tears.
Hot and revealing.
Telling the truth is hard work.