A last horrah!
Hmmm what do I want…
No really, this time, for realsies…

How many times have I said these things?

In the pursuit of this meaningful makeover, a major part of my life that needs to change is obviously the way I eat and the amount of exercise I get in my everyday life.
I can talk about vulnerable, deep rooted feelings and emotions all day long. The roots of my compulsive eating… admitting I’m a stress eater, out if control. I can identify with other women all the time about coping with stress using food, and hating myself when I do it.
The one thing I have NOT been able to do quite frankly is anything about it. I’ve started and stopped a hundred times. As they say, talk is cheap.

“Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect. -Romans 12:2 NLT ”

I could list for you all the different ways in which I have shelled out money and time and hope to different “programs” and customs and behaviors of this world.

I won’t. That’s boring.

The important thing here is the CHANGING THE WAY YOU THINK. I have finally started to trust God and believe that not only I can do it, but that I deserve to do it. We ALL deserve it. We have all been given bodies that are powerful and amazing and self healing. I have not been given this life to just lose it to fear and doubting and doing nothing…being fat and miserable and wasting away. Losing myself in the daily tasks of life and not really living, like so many of us do. I have been gifted with a new day and a changed mind.

Its being proven everyday in my life right now. When I finally made up my mind, the momentum has shifted…God is opening doors…the engine is firing…wheels are turning.
No longer sitting parked waiting for my start up. As I learned this weekend, I AM THE START UP.

So today I’m going to start with taking advantage of all these cardio and yoga videos I have here at home. Im going to choose fresh food to enjoy instead of just eating whatever crap is around. Not because I have to force myself or try to wear a bikini someday but becuase I want to feel good. I want to MOVE! I want to be a beast! I want to be strong and powerful and slay dragons! I want to show my kids that their mom is a bad ass and remind my husband why he was so smart to snag me.

Check out this video by the
Brand New Heavies…weird weird video but the song is the business.


Keeping myself motivated today to make up my mind, to live better. It’s my turn darn it. 🙂